Sunday, December 19, 2010

Home

Back home, woke up at 6 am like clock works, the time i normally wake up every day. However, it was easier to wake up cause the weather wasn't cold and dry, the way i like it. Nonetheless, waking up was a happy thing, cause i woke up in my hall at home. :) Slightly dazed, slight headache but a smile on the face and a thirsty appetite for re-remembering where i come from. I was a bit afraid yesterday i was starting to forget but as i took bites of food, i started remember things about places and people. Funny but food instead of music started showing me different times of my life.

It's good to be back home, missed my family. Got to meet all of them, my dad's side this time around. More little kids around, good to see them grow. Reminds me of the cycle of things.

Also worried about global warming btw.. LOL...thought i d throw that out there.

Anyways, plan to report in as often as i can on my blog as a record of my trip in Malaysia. :)

Vik

PS- have a good one where ever you are

Monday, December 13, 2010

My name is Vikneshan, and i m a library user

If you have watched the Georgia Meth Campaigns you ll get it. LOL..

Exams are on Wednesday. Two more days of studying.

ROAR..beeyotch

Friday, December 10, 2010

Exogenous

We are all...

The people who are us, and the us who people are...

Monday, December 6, 2010

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Dead Week

It's ironic they call it dead week, when its probably the busiest week in a semester anyways i m just finishing my project and term papers..then i need to study for my finals.

Listening to some christmas songs,i like the calm, cold but warm and cozy feeling it gives me :)

If this is the marathon, this is my last mile... i gotta finish.

Vik

Sunday, November 28, 2010

On The Brink

Of everything falling apart, my life seems like its falling apart. In some sense, i think i m to blame but really, it has been somewhat rough.. in grad school the semester load i took this semester is somewhat too much to handle for me but i guess we all learn from mistakes.

I gotta muck up and get stuff going, to stay another sem. Sigh, fight to the end, Vik's style... i forget sometimes who i am, and need help remembering.

To God i look for a miracle.

Hopeful,

Vik

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Love Hurts, Love Heals

"There are many kinds of love, the one that will outlast all is the kinda that loves and not expects, loves enough to see the bigger picture - we are all only human. Love isn't given based on merit just free will. love is the purest expression of freedom. Love as you will and be free as you heart dictates" - Vik

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Remixing Life

There are a lot of things you repeat in life. Some cause you have to... others cause its fun and you can do it better the next time...

On that note... remix...







Monday, November 1, 2010

Breakdowns

Haha, my car broke down last night on the way to krispy kreme. I guess that is karma for wanting to eat donuts... God's way of saying stay healthy. My knee is better, which is good, gonna try playing soccer today for the MEGA intramural team. :) Had to wake up early to get the car towed today, silly me only wore me slippers (sandals for americans), and forgot that it was a cold morning.. noob.

So yeah... i think it s the fuel pump, but i guess we will see.

Vik

Thursday, October 21, 2010

First Take Home Exam

Got my first take home exam today, it is common in graduate school but it is my first semester. Hence my first time, weird feeling. I got 24 hours to complete and submit it, feels like i m carrying a time bomb around. LOL..
anyways best get started i suppose. :) To all the people out there doing exams , assignments and etc, good luck. Don't give up.

With lots of funk,

Awesome: old aviator like headphones, listening to nice songs in the library...



Vik

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Fall Break 2010

Not sure I will be doing anything special this fall break. No plans so far might get up and decide to do something fun over the weekend. But i really want to finish up as much work as i can and use this as time to catch up. :) This year's birthday was simple and i was happy. Thank you friends, family, and my beautiful girlfriend. Also,  thank you God for helping me make it to 23.

I m truly grateful for whatever i have in life and don't. I wish everyone out there well. Got loads on my plate, right now i m just deciding on whether i should rest for awhile or just continue with work. All i do now, not that bad. I guess its a steep learning curve but i guess if you learning something then you are going the right direction, well some direction anyways.

The weather is just nice, the sun is shining a little shy, the leaves are playing that color game of theirs and the wind is as refreshing as it gets. Fall is finally here.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Mend the Broken

I'm not perfect and i don't know a lot of the things i need to know but i m not gonna stop trying. I m gonna fix my knee somehow, and if my knee cannot be fixed, i ll fix the way i walk. I will find a way. Giving up is the easy way out.

And to "un"-constipate this post:

Friday, October 1, 2010

My Cousin Sarah

Lol, have i told you about fun Sarah? well she is my mum's sister's daughter and she s currently teaching middle school i think. She teaches maths and science. For her maths questions she generally uses names of people that she knows. Here's my question and here's what her student replied >_<" ROFL

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Screens

It's been a bit of a rough week for me, didn't do so well in one of my tests :S but yeah, not giving up just yet. It's gonna be hard but i guess a lot of things are not easy. I probably got one of the lowest scores in class for this test. The sad thing it wasnt a hard test, i kinda freaked out. lol... i notice a trend always mess up at the beginning of the sem and have to work harder throughout the rest of them to pull up my grades. Hopefully i can pull it off.

Also, i have been sitting in front of the com for too long lately.. its like thats all i do, work on the com, which is annoying... >_<" Anyways, the weekend is almost here... my knee needs a fix, lets see how it works through some tests i m gonna put it through.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Justin Halpern's Dad

Suthan shared something on facebook, this twitter link to this kids dad saying... Justin is 29 and his father is like 70 years old or something. It is hillarious and it is very profound in a non-profound way lol... go figure.

Well here's the link, check it out: :)  I liked it enough to add the link on the sidebar of my blog.

http://twitter.com/shitmydadsays



Friday, September 17, 2010

Superpowers

If you could, what superpowers would you want to have?

Well one thing's for sure, don't pick the superpowers of the grad student. One thing grad school does to somebody is load them up with work, till they forget how to become human...  i m slowly, starting to feel the pinch.


Time to play soccer with fever, its been awhile since i done that wonder what it will feel like... hmmm

Beg, Steal or Borrow



By hook or crook

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Being Sick

I probably get sick once a semester, nowadays. I m guessing maybe thats why i didn't know i was sick today. I was sluggish and tired... even till 1 pm... and i went to class where the AC is so supercold, like being on a winter day walking out in the cold and realized my body is burning hot.

So who doesn't know that they are falling sick, i guess this time around i didn't. Sore throat, and Fever... right now...anyways gotta get back to work. No break for me, not yet at least

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Anger is a short madness

Sitting here in library trying to do a literature review in the area i m trying to do my research,trying to see what can be contributed but this is pissing me off. Not finding anything useful and its already been an hour. Maybe i m ticked off about something else? i don't know but can't care less... just too much work in so little time. How on earth does someone manage this.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Who eats dinner at 5.35 pm?

Hmm... not sure,but i sure am right now.. LOL.

Just got back from work, got quite a bit to do. Nothing new,but i m pretty gung-ho about starting early this time around. I kinda struggled the last time, when i did last minute work. Grad school is a different ball game.I mean its fine with classes alone but if you have research going on. It can be pretty hardcore. I m sure you graduate research assistants know what i m talking about.

Anyways,on a different topic. One of my 1st cousins got married :) Mithra, she looked really pretty hehe.. :) sigh.. although the thought of me not being able to be back home during the wedding does make me feel sad. Do miss them, mi familia... just the simple hanging out and playing around. Everyone has changed quite a bit i didnt even recognized one of nieces in pics... so cute.. Also, to note,all the girls are looking really pretty grown up :). Shalenee says its the palaniandy gene, dyi said i got it too. Did she mean i m pretty too? :P

Just borrowed my physics book to Zean, and almost done with dinner. Got to get back to work soon.

hehe... coolio... gtg now..

Friday, September 10, 2010

Not Long Enough?

WTF... i feel like this weekend is not long enough for work..epic fail...>_<" not long enough but work... FML lol..

2012... if you are real maybe its not so bad

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Google :P

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I m Still At The Library

So are you laughing at me or with me?

Are they laughing “at or with me”
Ah baby those are such great shoes
And I think that I’m so happy now
And I think this is a better you

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Anarchy

"Peace is the ability to understand the value of other individuals" - Vik Sun

Just the whole nature of war, violence, hate,racism and the things wrong with this world... I am writing a song about it. Trying to capture some side of this. So tired...i should be sleeping,been a long day.

If you only
Follow the fundamentals of what you see
You would cease to understand 
The truth isn't what it appears to be

From within, belief is the enemy
The cause of the anarchy
Surrounding the very foundation of life
You better believe that
Because belief is the enemy
when differences are sought to destroy

Anarchy,
You make me see,
You are the very cause of my disbelief
Defining everything i see 

I met the three blind man, 
and they told me what they thought 
of the elephant across street
I hear people talking
It's impossible to believe,
that they're actually thinking 

Anarchy,
You make me see,
You are the very cause of my disbelief
Defining everything i see [2X]

If peace is what you sow,
Then Peace is the ability 
to see what a person is really worth
but sadly,

Anarchy,
You make me see,
You are the very cause of my disbelief
Defining everything i see [2x]

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

So You Think You Can't Dance?

Think again...

Monday, August 30, 2010

Songs suggested to be covered 1



Just so i don't forget :)

Under the Couch

The Music Listening Room (MLR) just got combined with Under The Couch (Performing Grounds for Students and Musicians), It's pretty cool actually. :) Me likes the setup. Heard this band today, there when i was taking a 10 min nap after trying really hard to study but didnt get anywhere with that.



Tuesday, August 24, 2010

The Sound of Sunshine



Ever wonder what song would be best played when visiting the sun? :P

The first day of university was interesting. The new intake is a lot larger and there are lot more girls. The lack of familiar faces suggest i should get out of school soon. Anyways, the first day was good. Now the second day!!! LOL... anyways, i think i m gonna start setting gigs up and then plan to play at eddies attic, ATL sometime in spring if i manage to hone my talent to the level required. Google eddies attic if you don't know what it is.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Making Decisions

It's  a new semester again, and I have a degree. Doesn't really feel very comforting but i guess it's just cause i m thinking of jobs. It's back to Grad School for me. I m a little bit nervous, a little bit excited. Not too much emotion, not surprise given the fact, my head is here my heart isn't. Anyways, this post wasn't really supposed to be a sad post but somewhat a good reflective one.

The reality is that the same crossroads I thought I had worked out when i was 21 is back to challenge the workings of my mind. Ironic, cause back then i thought those were gonna be one of the hardest decisions to make but now i can clearly see the decisions i make and the actions i take are only gonna get harder, as the stakes get bigger.

Yesterday, I was talking to a friend that was a friend of mind through strange circumstances, through well through some of my worse decisions. I guess sometimes there is a clear silver lining even when you mess up. Even more so, after what she managed to make me see and understand a fight within me. I always knew i wasn't alone but I never really had another honest perspective, she shared her experience for my understanding. Kudos to her for that. Let's just say that what i figured out was that, sometimes we are all afraid of making decisions, especially when it comes to big ones,and when in twos we might not budge trying to be rational all the time and trying to protect our interests are logically. The thing is happiness isn't very logical, a lot of times we have a lot of "what-if"s, some in form of regret others in form of reinforcing retrospect. You have got to fight for you what you believe in, if it's something you feel that you have your heart and soul in. Regardless of how logical or rational it could be. Realizing that this statement is already rationalizing makes it a tad bit ironic, dontcha think?

The bottom line is that, sometimes what's worse than doing something "counter logical" is the fact that is not very logical to leave some important facets of your life undefined by action when you could have regardless of the outcome. The means of an end, juxtaposed  to the ends of mean is not always a clear comparison for many.In other words, the few important advices people close to me have given me, "Do the best you can given the circumstances you are in" has gained some new perspective.

Perhaps this is why the 600 men marched into the valley of death : The Charge of the Light Brigade

Monday, August 16, 2010

Chocolate and Biscuits

Somebody is forcing me to by chocolate and biscuits, because hungry while studying. So cute. XD but epic fail. :) I M A MONKEY!!! Wohooo....

Let's go here tonight!!!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Playing Tonight

Excited and unprepared.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Been Quite

Yup, been quite for a long time. Pretty hectic as far as work as concerned. LOL,i m not sure what to type, i guess its been awhile opening up to an electronic journal isn't that appealing at times. hehe... world cup, oh...what would the world be without a world cup..

Will post something i think :P dinner time now... then work,wohoo so exciting.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Anger

A man is a big as the things that make him angry - Churchill.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Winter Song

The weather and seasons fit the metaphors of moods and emotions best, i think compared to most words. It changes a lot of the times very unpredictably.



"Life is like peeing in the dark, you hope for the best". :) - Someone Wise

Monday, June 7, 2010

Summer Time

Friday, June 4, 2010

Imogen Heap @ Tabernacle

Just when I thought, my weekends are messed up cause they are starting to feel like just any other day, I get a message from Stephannie saying she is opening for Imogen Heap when I was at walmart getting my groceries like a depressed ******. So what else would i do, pounce on the first opportunity not to do work for today at least.

When i was buying the ticket i initially thought it was for tomorrow, sent a text to Steph, and she was like no its today >_<"... so yeah gotta get ready. =) Need a crash course in her songs. I have only heard a few. So I m like a virgin fan or something.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Laptop In Class

It's my last semester as an undergraduate, and It's my first time being my laptop to class. LOL... and i blog... it is faster to take notes with a laptop but it is a bit more tiring. Hmmm maybe i just tired today.

In my psych class right now, yup one of the things i took but i dont need this semester, pretty interesting stuff: Personality Theory, learning about neo-freudian psychology right now.

My heads beeping... gotta go,

Vik

VersaEmerge

Monday, May 31, 2010

Broadway is dark tonight...

Drove to Macon today and back just to see a friend and have dinner, 1.3 hours one way, i guess that's my out of the blues thing for this week. LOL... got back at 1 something and submitted my russian hw late. The printers not working and the library is closed so i couldn't send one of the parts ahaha doing it tomorrow. It's memorial day weekend tomorrow I ll be working and doing homework... fun fun fun...
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Monday, May 24, 2010

Marathons

I m gonna do a half marathon again, probably in Atlanta if i m still here in the fall.

I have decided! *Am trying to convince myself*

http://www.marathonguide.com/races/racedetails.cfm?MIDD=553101125

My Arcadia

The first week of the semester just finished, and I woke up in the morning, 6 to send Wen Eu to the airport, it feels like I have my a$$ handed to me already right now. I lost my thumbdrive too. Sigh... i don't want to spend more money on buying thumbdrives, i have already lost it once.

Anyways, gotta look forward...

As for bands, in tribute to new artistes, i will post a new band every day till the day I finally put my album up for downloads and the band for today is My Arcadia. Enjoy!

Vik

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Into the Pool

Finally got back into some sort of exercise, did 1 km in 35 minutes. The training for the half-marathon apparently did something to me physically although I did not manage to get ready for it but I managed to knock off like maybe 15 minutes. Also, without feeling much of anything afterwards besides my ears feeling like they have been stuffed with cotton candy. Now I have feeling I won't be eating cotton candy for quite sometime after visualizing that.

Still torn between what research to do. I want to get it resolved soon.

Someone help me, I need a ear. :(

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Happiness


For many there is a tendency to label anything from ideas to people. Scientists say it’s a way we automate the decision-making process into somewhat a more efficient manner; to recognize friend from foe. This is not the reason I am writing this. My attempt is purely to capture what brings happiness to me. I got inspired after watching “Into The Wild”. A story where this young man with a promising future he decides to donate his college fund to the needy and burns all his money after leaving everything in his life behind. He was running from a lot of things, mostly just society’s lies and hypocrisies that manifested its’ self mostly in his parents 's relationship. But the thing main that kept him going wasn’t fear but just the core of the human soul that lives on new experiences. I could go on and explain to you what happened in the movie but I think it’s best you watch it yourself. I think his end summarized the message that he learned from his journey. Throughout the movie he seemed to believe that happiness is not tied to just your relationships with other people. In his last moments, in Alaska out in the wild in a “magic” bus, he differs with a sentence written in probably one of his Jack London books. “Happiness is only real when it is shared”. He died from eating a poisonous plant. This is a true story, Chris McCandless set out to find what he was looking for I think he did find it. Sometimes, after watching some movies I feel like my footing on some issues have been challenge and like Chris said:  the need to feel strong is sometimes more important than to actually be strong, to measure himself/herself at least once.

            So what exactly is happiness to you? Is it your career? Is it money? Is it even tangible? I don’t know. If you want a definitive answer, that is mine.

I do feel happy making other people happy. Even strangers, one of the reasons why I like playing music, not only am I making myself happy but maybe if I do it right I can help some other people find what I feel in the music I play. I try to do this in a more material world, it is a lot harder, but I do feel some content in doing so but this doesn’t feel like I have put my finger down in the right place.

Could it be being with my loved ones? This is true. I’d love to occasionally spend time with them whenever I want to. Just knowing they are doing well, means a lot I am sure many of you understand this. This also only seems like one half of the picture. So what is the other half? I feel lost but there is this side of me that reeks of excitement to thought of exploring the unknown. Another thing I know for sure I share the excitement of taking things apart not necessarily putting them back together after that even as a child just to understand the inner workings of things for the sole purpose of fulfilling my curiosity; very much like hunger.

Living beings have desires or even sometimes just need to have desires; I guess when you fulfill those desires you will be happy. Conflict of needs and desires often cause a lot of gray areas. “Boredom: the desire for desires.” Leo Tolstoy.  Find it and grab it, if you believe in God, like I do. I think God is in everything you do. So do what you feel is right. I will understand.

My actions; I realized, me missing somebody is actually an act of happiness. Just being grateful to have known you or for you have made an impact in my life that I have been a better person after words. I miss a lot of people very often. Sometimes the people I have just met, some more deeply and more abstract in many layers but I know this it’s my way of saying I’m glad to know you and I wish you well. Maybe someday I d get the chance to share the happiness in your life.  

“A bone to the dog is not charity. Charity is the bone shared with the dog, when you are just as hungry as the dog.” – Jack London

Thank you for the charity.

“The proper function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time.” – Jack London

The Kazoo

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Sock the Hock

Did laundry today, as well my servicing my car. Yes it has finally sunk in, I have a car. Haha, funny? Yeah I know, thanks.  Anyways, found some of my socks torn so i decided to get new ones, and figured i wont get rid of it so i figured out some ways to reuse it. Hopefully i don't gross people out in the process. I do live with other people. Please note that the title isn't what i plan to do with it.

Here are a few things I could do with my old socks:

1. Sock puppets for kids of course (eww... yeah i know)
2. Bottle Insulator - Make a sock to keep it warm/cool. (still eww right? i don't think i use it but will try it out)
3. Wrist rest
4. Bon fire.... :P
5. The whole thrash it option.


Also an important highlight of the day is when I managed to almost take myself out. Was helping Nic to get his laundry at the laundromat so that he doesn't have to waste his time waiting. One person is enough to do that :), I got his laundry bag and tried to throw it into the car from the drivers seat to the passenger's seat and it's netted area caught hold of my chain(which by the way says Aum in Tamil). Next, well I got my forehead slammed into the car frame. That gave me quite a daze. We are a danger to ourselves sometimes.

Peace,

I made a phone call when I was sleeping last night, I don't remember fully what I said, was not feeling to well. Hopefully I didn't say anything too naughty. ;)

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Tiny Smiles

As my pants tore today, my feet start to hurt again,i m falling sick: fever,sore throat and i don't have one of the most important parts of my life with me... Deep down i just hanging on to the tiny smiles, that anyone has kindly given me. I feel like I wanna close my eyes and dream about living on a small house on a red heart shaped planet and when i wake up, wake up in that house.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Johnny Key

Graduated from Georgia Tech with a 4.0, an engineer who turned into a touring musician then back to engineering where i work right now? o.O wow...

He s really good, i think i ll buy his cd...and get it autographed.



Countdown


Time to the half marathon, 01 day 21 hours  03 mins 10 seconds to go...

http://www.derbyfestivalmarathon.com/Course_Information/ChronoTrack_Timing.htm


Time to the end of the world,

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Goodbye Mr.Jerry Rape

May you rest in peace.

Mr.Jerry Rape was someone who i worked with, a lab technician. This guy somewhere in his late 50s early 60s. Very nice quite guy, never really understood what he said fully. He had this deep voice, and didn't pronounce words quite clearly, well to an immigrant like me at least. It is my third rotation here with GE Roper, and I have required his assistance a lot of times, along with the other people who work at the evaluation lab.

I must admit over the entire year that i have worked here, i barely got the chance to really know him. Just the normal small talk, but i just want to say Thank You Mr. Jerry Rape for being a good person. It was sad to see you go, come to work and get a surprise like that knowing that i was supposed to work on something with you that morning. Then seeing the true nature of death, on how everything just goes on, you might be elsewhere but what you have shared with me, your good nature, I won't forget.

Thank you,

Vik

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Altered Perceptions

Ran at the battlefield parkway today, it was good really pretty place. It is a preserved park in memory to the people who fought the civil war there. Lot's of monuments, statues and trails. Got some deers,owls and etc.

Suddenly, running the half marathon in 1 1/2 weeks doesn't seem like a good idea. Ran 7 miles today, it feels good but another 6 miles? :( am running like 5 mph, such a bad time...embarrassing wished i trained harder. Ran like two miles only cumulative last week LOL..

Sigh...we'll see how it goes, have to drive like 4 hours to the venue too. :( Gotta get my mind ready somehow. Cause if that gives. Bye bye Marathon

Did You Mean This Shalenee?

Monday, April 12, 2010

The Right Side Up

Yup, I finally decided what to call my first album, "The Right Side Up", maybe in another post i will explain what it means but for now.

Current event's don't concur with the album title, I apparently bought some music from apples itunes store and bought something for an infant somewhere in the US LOL... must have did that while i was sleeping or something cause i don't remember having a kid or an iPod. Maybe someone got pampers for their iPod.


The pollen is messing my throat up, i hope it doesn't become a serious allergy. I have no replies from the grad school yet. So how can it be the right side up? I don't know... and I said I will explain in a different post. I do know something ;)..


Here's the link to where the album can be downloaded, a website with other information too. Note, it is still under construction :)


www.wix.com/vikneshan/The-Right-Side-Up

Will start uploading the songs as soon, as i decide what the final list should be. I wanna get this done as soon as possible :) It's been awhile.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Dream Catch Me



We can hurt,
So we can dream, can't we?

Friday, April 9, 2010

Won't Stop



Happy Weekend!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Summer Concerts

Something to keep track of the possible concerts to go to in Summer


1. Daughtry
2. Corinne Bailey Rae
3. Imogen Heap 
4. Angels and Airways

Still looking for more, open to suggestions and let me know if you wanna tag along.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Monday, April 5, 2010

Torn

I can't help but feel this way. Maybe you don't understand.

I am not strong enough.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Spring is here, Summer is Near

The sun brings out the bikinis LOL, probably one of the ups of the summer. Played soccer in the sun this Saturday it was awesome.Really different feeling then playing during winter. Don't get me wrong i like playing in the bearable cold of the Atlanta winter.

Jet is playing at Tech this weekend, for sting break. I like Sting break,  the school council is at least trying to make school a bit more fun. The opening band is King Crashers or something like that. Still contemplating whether i should go or not, cause it is on a Thursday and i have stuff to do.

:) Still not sure, what i m gonna be doing for masters, i hope i ll find out soon or get an opportunity. I guess all i can do now is keep trying and hope for the best :).

The weekend was pretty fun, the show went better than i thought, i think i connected with the audience pretty well this time. I m getting used to crowds, i think. This crowd at least. :) Thank you to everyone who supported me and as for music, i have identified what i need to re record and it is almost done. I have also started building a site for it, so you can download it or get lyrics or what not. Will use the site to post up .up coming events and etc.

I am looking for a place to sub-rent in the summer. Have anyone that wants to sublease?

Anyways, hope all is well with y'all. Take care.

Vik

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Tired

of Missing

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Running Begins

Hi, time to take running seriously and stop blogging too much, here is how much behind i m from my target. The Half -marathon is in 3 weeks. Seems impossible lets see, how much better i can get. I ll give it my best thats one thing i know. Also i realized how i m running somewhat wrong. Running long distances help u understand your body better. I think i have found a way to correct it.

Life's Decisions

I realize that this picture has been use probably by a lot of masters students i know but i m gonna use it too cause it pretty much explains the predicament we go through, also i realized i just had a blog spurt, 3 blogs in probably 8 hours?

If Only To Live For A Day

In bits and pieces
I know you have the world to carry on your shoulders
But crawl inside my mind; take a break
And you’ll probably understand
Maybe you’ll find out that I’m always thinking of you
In the warmest ways I can
A seaside somewhere with mountains in the background

Sometimes I hear voices saying
Maybe I wished you never came to my world
At another glance, these are voices of fear
Train wrecks miniscule by comparison

Maybe someday I’ll walk alone
I’ll walk and fall onto my face
And there won’t be anyone to pick me up
Maybe someday I’ll walk alone
I’ll have to trace my way back home
And there won’t be anyone to pick me up
But I won’t mind, if only to live for a day

Time is teaching me tricks
I don’t understand
I’m having trouble sleeping
But only right before dawn
Life will play pranks on you
Laugh it out
With sticks and bones on your back
Grass on your feet
Sun on your face

Maybe someday I’ll walk alone
I’ll walk and fall onto my face
And there won’t be anyone to pick me up
Maybe someday I’ll walk alone
I’ll have to trace my way back home
And there won’t be any rest for these tired legs
But I won’t mind, if only to live for a day

Traces of proximity linger in my mind
Wrong or Right, I could care less
I don't want to live in a bitter world
Life can’t be this bitter,
Not today…




Monday, March 29, 2010

Collateral Damage

Kinda funny how a lot of people make use of the way collateral damage works, for instance those inhumane bombings like the one that just happened in Moscow. Apparently, Prasad and Shareen were just minutes away from taking that train.

http://www.cnn.com/2010/WORLD/europe/03/29/russia.subway.explosion/index.html?hpt=C1"

So yeah, they figured people's lives would be a collateral to the government. Try to induce fear with such acts. God bless the souls of those people who got hurt for no reason. Maybe one day in perfect world, these people will get what they deserve.

On a somewhat similar note, i can't seem to fall asleep. Possibly the fact that i decided to take a four hour nap after work. Well, i guess it at least adds up. I probably will try to try to sleep again in a bit.Here's the recording for it ain't easy. Lemme know what you think



I have one more song request to do, which is banana pancakes :) for Trini and Shary. So yeah, i wanted to finish it today but the computer was lagging for some reason. Looks fixed for now. We will see.

There is so much say about doing the right thing, it's kinda odd. Things like Google pulling out of China because of bad business ethics and what not. The you end up reading all these conspiracy theories and wonder whether this is real. Also the technologies all these superpowers are developing, scary but at least you know modern day warfare is evolving to be more of a accurate and concise measure. Instead of something as colossal both in area and power such as nuclear weapons.

WW3? LOL...you'd think you not maybe thats not possible. How does one lifetime see so much war, when it is so short. I guess it all makes sense. We have become good at fighting for something,it doesn't even matter even in peace we need something to fight against a common enemy perhaps? Could that explain the very nature of human beings keeping war inevitable. Or is because men rule the world? highly doubt it. If fighting were only in men you wouldn't see a higher incidence of teenage girls actually getting into fights in school. LOL.. so what is it? are we all violent, killing machines, thirsty for action deep down inside with a facade of niceness on the outside so we can handle our cognitive dissonance of trying to become who you say you are?

There i m ranting, peace out. Time to shut up LOL. Take care. I know one thing. I am not good. If you ask me to be honest, i think i both good and evil, maybe a bit more evil. Just to keep things in flow rather than just static and always objective. I have made many decisions and many mislead ones but i m responsible for them. So when the time comes, i suppose i will pay for them. Karma,as some say.

Vik

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Friday, March 26, 2010

Pick a word that rhymes

Friday , the day i want to ...

This blog needs a makeover, pathetic.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Mimi's Food Dispenser

Yes He is a male rabbit... don't ask me why his name is like that, ask Sarah

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Things Learnt Today @ Work

1. Don't Cut Tempered Glass (to think all that class about stressed would have thought you something)



2. Don't Open Containers that you know nothing about, you might find aluminum dust which is not safe. MSDS

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Sunday, March 14, 2010

It Ain't Easy

I open my heart wide
I shut lips tight
I squint my eyes
To glimmer the shimmer around me

The cold breeze,
Lightly teasing me..

So why am i so out of it
Why am i so...

Cause the many little things
we oughta do,many ain't easy
It ain't easy   
It ain't  easy

To the depths of death we march,
fear far from heart,
fate not far from mind.
Honor in one hand, the other free,
to rip the beating of your life
To do what you need

So why am i so out of it
Why am i so...

Cause out the many things
we oughta do,many ain't easy
It ain't easy   
It ain't  easy

The parch road of failure
Isn't because of the decisions you make
It's the ones you don't make

It ain't easy
It ain't easy
It ain't easy   
It ain't  easy

Self Quotes

A lot of the times, it is always a fine line between either one extremes, the beginning - ending, mad-ingenious, life-death, friend-foe, light-darkness, hurt-love; Honor favors courage. To the depths of death we march, fear far from heart, fate not far from mind. Honor in one hand, the other free, to rip the beating of your life to do what you need.

Paradoxes

"War is peace." "Freedom is slavery." "Less is more."

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

This sucks

Today was pretty bad, feeling down for no apparent reason but yeah, it's alright i guess we all have days like that. The trick is not to succumb to it? not sure that worked this time. Maybe i m just tired...

Anyways, i signed up for a gig, but then realize i didn't want to do it. why? LOL... just some reasons.

Life is out there, where am i?

Nowhere to be seen, that's where.

Friday, March 5, 2010

You Can Do Many Things With The Same Notes

Shalenee tell's me i should name it TCDMTWTSN o.O

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Her Diamonds

Requester: Jackson Chao :)

Waiting to be great


My soul is restless
My body is happy
And my heart is broken
Mind, wide awake
Swimming in a cold winter's lake
Waiting to be great

     As much as it makes me beat
Not much of a feat  
I don't love it
Let it be broken
 

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Song Requests

There's been a lot happening lately, and i know i've i left some you... MY FRIENDS, out in the dark i apologize for all of that.

And for that i'll be doing song requests for anyone who asks it this week. Just to show you i care about you all. I'll personally take my time to do each and everyone of it.

Will post updates about what i m doing right now tomorrow, time for a shower and nap then work. TTYL

Vik

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Self Quotes

"Time is a very important measure of life; Not a measure of quality but of potential"

So that's why it can never be overrated

Get By

You know those days where some videos are just good enough to make a bump in your day and keep you going? here are some interesting material :)

http://tv.yahoo.com/daytime/video/the-early-show-regis-kelly-ellen/17861288/


http://video.yahoo.com/network/100284668?v=6947489&l=3774749

LOL...WHATEVER!!!...

And here's something i recorded using TK/Wen Eu's nylon string guitar...oh...i started playing spanish guitar again.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Confusion

I m really not sure whats up in my head and heart right now, i just feeling emotionally tired again  i suppose and i m whining ? maybe... anyways, maybe its all this uncertainty... i'd like to think that i am okay... but am i?

Maybe it's this lack of sleep, or me losing myself in someone else.. i dunno...i m just gonna take a step back, sit down, breathe and stare.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Inspiration

I having bursts of it...

Oh, here's something interesting :)

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/picturegalleries/howaboutthat/7257959/Dead-flies-cartoons-by-Magnus-Muhr.html


Drinking Pepsi @ Work

Vik

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Gettin' Gas

Well, like me to go get gas 12.30 am when i m supposed to be in bed asleep. I got back on the way home from Shailesh's place. It was his birthday they had something small the same thing they did for Ashwin yesterday. Those things are making me sleepy at work, cause i get back i m not ready to sleep.

Anyways, in subzero weather my car gas refill cover got stuck probably the body shrunk over the cover or something, technically they should somewhat shrink the same amount both body and cover. So i m guessing the other reason would be the release is broken but yeah..that kept me out for another 20 mins in the cold...ah... but i managed to get it fix...i got something under the release lever while pulling it out open. So maybe it is the release after all.

Monday, February 15, 2010

The Sky

Let's see what's my limit

3/21/10ING Georgia Marathon & Half MarathonAtlanta, GAWebsite

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Rabbits

This may sound stupid but i m sitting at work at this moment trying to figure out how smart rabbits are. =S

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Words

Even the slightest misuse will screw you over apparently, even if you didn't mean to cause any damage with it.

Probably the same thing John Mayer's going thru for using the "N" word and stuff, its funny, how its a big deal when he s using it, and they didn't take it as it was in context. Just cause he's a white guy it was a big deal.

Life's a joke.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Snow Plow

I'm kinda warm cosy, just woke up at 1.30 ish... hungry, and i have nothing to eat. So i need to go get something was thinking of getting fastfood and watching Boondock Saints 2 at home :) kinda liked the first one. It's CNY and Valentines, not sure exactly what i ll be doing.

Anyways, i best get ready to go plow the snow. :) This only happens sometimes in the south, thank goodness.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR  & HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

INVICTUS

Let this blog be a reminder to me, you can be better or bitter....

You are as invincible as your inspirations.


Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.